Life Day by Day

Thanks Becki, Kristi, and Lindy for your sweet comments on my last blog. They were encouraging and helped me feel less like a 'failure'...and made me feel less like I am looked at as some sort of failure.

I have a doctor's appointment for tomorrow at 2pm and hopefully they'll have Dr. House type skills and figure out what is wrong with me. I noticed yesterday that I am starting to get my strep rash again and I still have pretty severe stomach aches multiple times daily. As in every hour, hour and a half I have to run to the bathroom. It sucks. I've had that for over 2 weeks now and that was bad enough, but now that the strep rash is coming back after going away with the antibiotics, I am getting frustrated and annoyed.

Rain has been very sweet today. I have been feeling so bad being her caregiver during the day because any sort of exercise makes my stomach unhappy, so Rain has been missing out on all her morning walks and playtime. Poor girl. :( Today, though, I think she is realizing I'm not feeling very well because she is keeping to my side like a shadow, looks at me with big, soulful eyes, and crawls up onto my lap anytime she can. I swear she thinks she's weighs 10 lbs instead of near 80, but she is so gentle and cuddly about it that I can't resist. :)

Tim had a good day at work today. It is so nice to see him come home with a smile on his face and stories of successfully fixed tickets (tickets sent to them from the help desk regarding network problems). He's challenged, overcomes, and is content. Oh, so nice as I'm sure all the married woman out there can attest to! :P

We bough Rain a dog backpack from REI to make her walks more challenging for her and it came in the mail yesterday. She holds very still in it until we make her move, but she does well with it. She looks pretty cool in it too. :) What was weird though, is we only ordered one, REI only charged us for one, shipping for one, and they sent us 4! So now we have to untangle all that.

Well, I'm off to watch the Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants. :) 'Til later!

Here is a quick update as to what has been going on here the past couple weeks. I just haven't had the energy to write. :)

• Strep got better, but caught a stomach flu that after 2 weeks I'm just getting over. It's so nice not to be in constant pain now. :)
• Tim finished his class with a good test score of 97%, and is enjoying his new job so far.
• We're now at the 12 month mark of trying to conceive. It's hard to see people who are pregnant, especially if it's easy for them to get that way. I wonder why God doesn't see fit to bless us. Also, I find I carry a fair amount of humiliation and embarrassment over it.
• The trade was denied due to an "assignment on record" for Kenneth Barnum. So we're now trying plan B of re-enlisting with base of preference...but we won't be moving back to WA 'til May. Another winter and holiday season in the South. I hate it here so much I cannot express it - Warner Robins is the complete opposite of anything that would make life worthwhile. No job, no family, no challanges, no school, no outdoor activities, etc, etc.

Hopefully I'll be up to writing more now that I'm feeling a bit better, and now you're caught up on the highlights.

Yay! We're off! :D

Well, I just got off the phone with the urgent care nurse on base and she has referred me to a "med stop" (I had never heard of that before?). I am supposed to go ASAP today. So now I just have to wait 'til Tim can get off work to take me since he has the only car. Luckily, they're letting him off early so he can bring me so we should be on the way in an hour or so. It will be a relief to at least hear what this stupid rash is! I thought last night that it was finally getting better, but I woke up this morning to it being as bad as ever and spreading. Now I'm starting to get the tiny pink bumps up my neck! NO!!! I hope they have some miracle drug they can give me and make this all go away.

I have re-washed all my clothes in borax so it shouldn't be the detergent and nothing else is new...I've been taking cold showers 3-4 times a day - no soap - and no lotion afterwards, instead I'm smothering myself in aloe. No fun, no fun.

I really hope this is gone by Sunday when we head down to Disney World. :/

Today seems like it's gonna be one of "those" days. First off, I have been dealing with a miserable, unexplained rash since Thursday that itches like you wouldn't believe and is on my arms, legs, and a bit on my tummy. It's not getting worse really, but it's not getting any better, and is like tons of tiny little clear blisters -some stacked on top of each other. If it hasn't made a marked improvement by Monday I'm going in to the doctors.

Then I woke up with cramps today, nothing terribly different there for my time of the month, but just another discomfort on top of the disgusting and itchy rash. As you can tell, I'm feeling very attractive today. :P

THEN, we brought Rain on a walk and though she does very well, she gets really excited to see new people and new dogs. Well this family shanghaied us and wanted Rain to meet their dog in the back yard. They wouldn't take no for an answer so, not to be rude and because Rain was doing okay, we brought her back there. She got excited but not out of control...then the guy wanted to pet Rain and got all "hey puppy! good girl!" on her...all high voiced and hyper himself. Well she flipped. Next thing you know she has jumped all over me and covered me with mud (my new, white running shoes are now permanently orange) and scratched 3 deep scratches in my rashy, blistery, itchy arm!

Ick. And it's only 12:30.